In a prickly mood

I am not in a good mood, I am really prickly. I am not enjoying my work, it’s the same old crap and I don’t have the patience for it. I am doing it for the money,  Its not good. I’ve said I need to transition away from my career and it needs to happen now. I need to believe I can make it happen now.  I am listening to the Katy Perry song ‘Wide Awake’.  I need to channel all my energy into positive stuff and not negative thoughts and frustrations.

CPAP machine is not working

That CPAP machine is not for me. I am on my second mask and I ripped it off, in my subconscious, for the second night in a row. I’ve got to find a solution.

3 months off next year?

I’ve said that I would take 3 months off next year and that’s what I need to do. I’ve got 5 weeks holiday – 3 in Brazil./Argentina and 2 in Mexico.  

I need to show some courage and bravery now.  Move forwards.  I need to write for a few weeks. But I need to also find some social life as well.  If I don’t have the social life at work, then where do I get it from?

Felt awful leaving Grace

I feel dreadful leaving Grace at night.  I want to leave her when she is fast asleep.  She needs me and I need her.