I really do get it with Lionella

So now I get it with how Lionella feels about me, as I have similar feelings.  Relating to her situation makes me feel a lot better. I think when you know something is not going to work and you want to move on, you move on.

Grace seems settled

When I arrived at the care home yesterday, at around 0800, Grace was fast asleep. I am so happy to see her relaxed.  I’ve bought her a new TV, but its far too big at 58” – oh bugger. I can’t put it on the wall. 

Caroline spent time with Grace yesterday as well, which I am happy to see. I know she wants to engage, but I really don’t feel like it. 

I am shattered and this CPAP machine is a pain in the a@@e

I am shattered from trying to do much.  This morning I was not until after 0800. I just felt so tired. Over the last few days, from well before dawn and until evening I am busy, with Grace, with work and, with personal stuff.  As a result, I am not eating well either, my dental hygiene is poor, my sleeping patterns are not good, and I am not using the CPAP machine. I need to fix all of this. Get back to being with Grace, and doing my Spanish and Book whilst with her, and focus on the other matters of self care.

I can see so many positives with the new care home

I am now being exposed to a different care environment. It is more modern and spacious, with better amenities. It feels more relaxed for Grace as well.  As her room is so big I can spend time with her in there. Last night we watched a movie together. I get the feeling Laurens is trying to keep costs to an absolute minimum.  Also it is not really welcoming environment for family members to stay in the room or living areas. Some of h

The only downside I have noticed is that the distance is so short between the apartment and the care home, that I don’t have switch off time when I leave.  The ten-minute walk and metro journey would allow me to switch off.

I am angry about the how some individuals at Laurens behaved and this is not over.  Amongst, a number of things, I am going to press on GDPR, on gaps in the medical report and call out the failings in care.