Lunch with Lara

Yesterday I had lunch Lara with on the seafront at Santa Pola. Eating a mix of fresh fish dishes. I’ve known Lara, from Slovenia, since 2016, when we walked same stretch of the Camino Frances from Roncesvalles to Pamplona.  Coincidentally she was and continues to live in Elche, near Alicante, which is about 45 mins from Lo Pagan. So from time to time, we meet up.  We’ve talked a lot about each others lives over the last few years, as they have ever changed.

Yesterday I had my ‘I miss Grace so much moment’. It always happens a day or two after being away from Grace. I feel a deep sense of guilt that I am free and independent, as opposed to Grace in the wheelchair in the care home.

What I also recognised from speaking to Lara yesterday, recollecting over the past few years, is that I truly love Grace, want to be with her and still feel a deep connection with her. I also feel the guilt about Grace greater here in Lo Pagan than anywhere else. We have good memories here together and its also the place where she fell on her bike and cut her head.  If only she had not been wearing those cycling shoes, with no helmet and we’d had not run into each other? 

I was so impressed with Lara, in terms of how she has learnt more about herself, what she needs and taking care of that.  She seems very happy and content. I wish I had been that wise at her age.

Flying the Drone

We had a go flying the drone yesterday.  I am so glad I bought this ‘toy’ second hand. Rather than paying hundreds and hundreds of euros. I wonder how quickly it is before I sell it.

Writers Block

I am suffering writers block with the new book. I can barely write one or two paragraphs. I think I am also needing to relax and re-energise.

Wow there are so many good looking latino women here  😊 

…and my Airpods work still. Wow I am so luckly.