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Coping with not being with Grace for 3 weeks

I’ve been wondering how I am going to cope with not seeing Grace for 3 weeks in February. I struggle after one day.  Also, she is more on her own in the new care home, or is she. Because ultimately the contact was few and far between.

The drone got left in Spain. That’s say it all really. Maybe I go back therefore before I go to Brazil … I doubt it though.

Washed out again

I was washed out yesterday, in bed and asleep by 2200.  It is also evident that a few glasses of wine makes my mood awful the following day, as well as being tired.

Grace is in the right place

I was so happy to see Grace, she is smiling and relaxed. I wish I could have been with her longer. She is comfortable where she is. I think now that she is less mobile, being in the care environment is right for her.

Struggling with Motivation at Work

I am struggle with motivation for work. I don’t want to get too connected to what I am doing. I am thankful I am paid less for doing the role these days.  Equally I do need the work and the income.  It’s the perfect role, as it means I can spend so much time with Grace.  So I should not knock it.

Home Shopping Catalogue

I can swipe and swipe and swipe, and though I connect with beautiful women I am not really interested. It’s like browsing an home shopping catalogue.