Grace Struggles More and More
Grace is less verbal and shows less engagement. It gets tougher to draw on my own energy. Before, she gave me some of her energy; now, I need to fill that void. I need to show some strength here.
I Need Some Time Out
I’ve given myself a day off. I don’t get out of bed until midday and spend the rest of the day doing little or nothing. I get my hair cut at the barbers down the road, then head into town.
I grab tea at the Bijenkorf, a well-known department store in the Netherlands. I ask if the seat between an elderly lady and a middle-aged woman is free. The elderly lady babbles on, saying it’s not free, and when I ask where the person is, she replies that they are in the queue. I look in the queue and see no one. I respond in English, saying I’ve got no time for this nonsense, and proceed to sit down. It turns out no one was planning to sit there.
I’m tempted to buy some jeans, but I don’t see anything I like, and I also can’t be bothered to try anything on. I head back to see Grace and fall asleep on the bed while watching Reacher on Amazon Prime with her.
Learning More Languages
I start to wonder if I should do some volunteering or menial jobs in bars and cafes abroad, where I can learn the language—Spanish, Portuguese, and more.
