I just want to be with Grace. I’m tired because I drank too much wine last night. I’ve come to see Grace around 8:15 and lay in bed with her for 90 minutes. She’s all smiles, and I’m happy to be with her. I need her to calm me down and relax me. I love Grace very much and remind myself that I’m here to make her happy. I don’t have a clear headspace right now. I need to focus on my objectives: Dutch, trading, and books.
