Grace Not Happy in the Living Room
Last night, I spoke at length with a nurse after Grace was brought to bed early, around 6:30 PM. Apparently, Grace seemed uncomfortable in the living room, but she appeared fine in bed. There’s no doubt she is experiencing a decline, although her physical health is good. I need to keep moving forward.
My Sleep Is Still Not Good
I am shattered. I haven’t slept well. I fell asleep by 10:00 PM but woke up at 1:00 AM, then again from 2:00 AM until 3:00 AM. I was kind to myself last night and didn’t do too much. I feel mentally exhausted rather than physically tired.
I have three and a half days left before I have a week and a half off, and then another seven and a half weeks before I’m off to Rio. Going to Rio is the right thing for me; I need some downtime and fun as well. Don’t get me wrong—I love all my time with Grace.
I Need to Move Forward with Things
It’s time to get back to my second book and complete it. I’ve ground to a halt—no writing, no Spanish, no healthy eating. I just feel lost and exhausted, looking backward at pictures of L. It’s not good.
Do I miss the kids? Do I feel anger toward them? No, I just feel directionless about the whole situation.
