It was my last day of therapy today and honestly it has run its course. I now need to continue to embed the changes I am making to my lifestyle. I am less angry, I don’t drink, my diet has radically changed so that I lose weight, my blood pressure is lower, and I am no longer swiping left and right. As I say to Annemieke, the one thing that has remained constant since the therapy that I feel like I am waiting for Grace to pass away. All I can do is spend lots of time with her and do things that give me choices for my future.
I’d also the connection with Grace for a week or so, but it is back again!. This is no different to any normal relationship. I get her to sit on the sofa next to me, she falls asleep resting her head on my shoulder. It’s a wonderful feeling. Earlier I asked her to put her arms around and give me a hug, for weeks I’ve not been able to get her to do this and tonight she gives me a hug. Its amazing.
A nurse has upset me, I want to walk her around and last week she snitched on me to the Doctor. I have decided to take Grace for a walk by myself. I take her to the restaurant where we walk around. I know my wife and I want the best for her, I trust my instinct.
