I realised tonight why I did not enjoy going into business with others. After doing a piece on my own values, I found that empowerment is one of my top two values – the ability to decide things for myself. It’s not about being selfish; it’s about the ability to choose my own path, adapt, flex, and change as I grow and learn, and to progress down different paths as and I when I want to. Each time, I have a moment where I ask myself, “Why the f@@k am I doing this?” I watch everyone around me, and I always sense that I am getting motivated for different reasons. I never feel like I missed what they had or desired what they wanted.
Leaving Grace each evening is heart-wrenching. She is happy, and I feel like I make her sad when I say I am leaving. Also, I take my headphones with me, so I am taking away her amusement/fun.
The book is out, and it’s done. I suppose I should publicize the fact. It’s not that I feel underwhelmed; it’s more that I feel like I am rubbing my ego by publicizing it on Facebook and Instagram.
