Today, I met with the COO to learn their decision regarding retaining me. The meeting lasted about 15 minutes, and from the outset it was made clear that the company does not intend to extend my contract beyond its current end date of 31st July.

Initially, a felt anger inside me, a natural response to feeling rejected, even if I didn’t truly care about the decision. It’s akin to being dumped by a partner, despite having no desire to continue the relationship.

Did my anger manifest visibly? Perhaps a little, but I reminded myself during the meeting to let it go. And I did.

Did I argue for my retention? No. Ultimately, this was the decision I wanted to hear. I did not wish to stay. Why would I?

Now, three hours later, I feel so much better. I have six weeks ahead to sort out new work, complete my second book (which revolves around my experiences in this company 😊), and spend more time with Grace. I have no doubts about myself.

Visiting the care home and witnessing others grappling with far greater life struggles puts my own situation into perspective. Why would I want to work for a company lacking social and professional values?

When the COO mentioned difficulties in fitting into certain work cultures as an explanation, I responded that it’s about values, and I’m unsure of the company’s stance. In response, he claimed that the company has very clear values, for example. aiming to be a leading security provider. His response speaks volumes.

Despite the COO’s denial, I’ve been informed that the decision was made weeks ago, and he appeared to have little influence over it.  Who is working for who? Looks like he works for my (soon to be my former) boss.